FEELINGS

These feelings I have for you are so deep. I can feel them boiling deep down inside of me. I love you. But its too soon to tell you. You gave me your body and I gave you mine. 

I'm afraid. Afraid that you won't love me the way I love you. Afraid I'm no more than someone you're dating. 

But I know that's not true. I know you need me in your life. I know you desire me. I'm so happy 

I don't do drugs anymore. My mind is changing, evolving and you're a witness to all of it. 

You're falling in love with who I really am. Maybe that's why no one ever loved me. Because drugs kept me from showing what's truly beneath me.

 Im so vulnerable when I'm with you and even worse when I'm without you. Ad yet I want to dive into you until I know for sure....

But maybe it isn't about trusting. Maybe love is a jump. umping into the dark abyss, with your arms open, face first, regardless of what's to come. 

After all, life is meant to be spent living, not dying. I love you Dan. I'm going to dive into your dark abyss. Because you told me to trust that you're not going to hurt me. 

Maybe I'm the beast you should be afraid of. Maybe you're the one to see what you're made of.  

OH MAURICIO

Oh Mauricio - just your name makes me weep
                        I can't put myself to sleep
Oh Mauricio - God forgive me I'm so naive
                        I wish one of us would leave
Oh Mauricio - How I wish that you could see
                        the one who wants you most is me
Oh Mauricio - How I'm jealous of those girls
                        who you let inside your world


You are my greatest lesson, you are my greatest trial
But I must face the facts and I must face denial.
Another time another place, I could fall in your embrace
Another universe or world, maybe I could be your girl

Sometimes I can't look at you - sometimes I just wanna quit
                                                   cuz I can't handle it
Sometimes I can't look at you - I'm afraid of what you'll see
                                                 U would see yourself with me


Oh Mauricio - just your name makes me weep
                        I can't put myself to sleep
Oh Mauricio - God forgive me I'm so naive
                        I wish one of us would leave
Oh Mauricio - How I wish that you could see
                        the one who wants you most is me
Oh Mauricio - How I'm jealous of those girls
                        who you let inside your world


I must be the man I want, I must be the man I need
Gotta face all my emotions, so I can finally be free
I must let you live your life, cuz I know you feel my pain
Made a promise to myself, I'll never go through this again


I am so damn naive, what the hell is wrong with me?
but you're here because of karma, it'll never ever leave
I wish that all my feelings for you, I wish they all would go away
I wish that you would just leave me, I wish that you just would stay

Dios ayudame por que estoy enamorado con el
Y no puedo controlarme cuando miro a su piel
Necesito penesilina pa' mi corazón herida
Dios proteje mis emociones, no me falle ni me abandones 

Dios ayudame.....Oh Mauricio

ANDREW

I can't believe Andrew taught gym class today! I was sure that I wouldn't see him. My intuition is all off today. I thought Andrew H would be teaching today. Not Andrew W! I ignored him today. Can't deal with him. I'm mad at him for ignoring me. Maybe I'm just mad at the fact that I can never have him. 
 

Men

Men....I love em so much....

Robbie Wadge- UK Model

Bradley Cooper

Zac Efron

Francisco Lachowski- Brazil Model

Rafael Nadal

Cristiano Ronaldo

Men from the cast of 'Glee'

Mika-UK Singer

Justin Timberlake mmmmm :)

Heath Ledger

Wentworth Miller

Guy Pearce

Brandon Routh

Tom Welling

Daniel Day Lewis

Eric Bana

Gale Harold

Last but not least, my husband :)